I’m Living

Today in the car my daughter and I were discussing an assignment she needs to do, a series of photos based around poem or book, with a theme of “family”.

I told her, “Oh, you could do that famous children’s book.”

“I don’t know which book you mean,” she replied.

I couldn’t respond because I had burst into tears.

Okay… so THAT was stable.

I pulled myself together and attempted to continue the conversation and immediately burst into tears again.

WTF?  Back off emotional breakdown, I don’t have time for this.

The book I was referring to is Love You Forever, by Robert Munsh.  Clearly the recent events with my father are shoving my parents’ mortality down my throat until I am choking on it.

Things continue to be emotionally and mentally difficult in my life for a variety of reasons, and the health of my father is just one of those.  The recent heat wave has also been brutal on me, of course.  On the good news front, my frequency and severity of migraines is getting better under control.  Working hard on remembering and appreciating the bits that are going well.

Deep breaths.

But all day and into the night, a verse keeps echoing in my mind.

“I’ll love you forever,
I’ll like you for always,
as long as I’m living
my daddy you’ll be.”

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One Response to “I’m Living”

  1. Jen says:

    I can’t even read that excerpt without tearing up. God forbid I actually read the whole book someday…I just haven’t been able to buy it yet.

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